Questions About Mummy in Heaven, Answered.

Questions About Mummy in Heaven, Answered.

I thought I would feel lighter. Instead I feel as though I am cradling the delicate emotions of our girls in raw hands. Not heavy, not light. Complex truth. Mother’s Day morning (a strange yet appropriate coincidence) we gathered quietly first thing in the morning in the living room. I lit candles as our family trickled … Continue reading

Maternal Weight

Maternal Weight

My Oma passed away peacefully in her sleep a few days ago on April 1st. I noticed above all that it was a beautiful day. I’ve already packed away the less-than-ideal moments like how the nursing home gave me a rehearsed and standard answer when I asked if she died peacfully. Or like how her … Continue reading

My Unofficial Mother’s Day

My Unofficial Mother’s Day

Five years ago, on March 26th, 2010, I became a capital M Momma. Cindy MacKenzie died that day, leaving me a huge gift. Two beautiful souls in need of another mum. It wasn’t even a decision for me. I just knew that was my path. You may know our story already. I won’t recap it … Continue reading

Grace Under Fire

I’m looking for more patience with my family. What would it take? Remember that show from the 90’s, Grace Under Fire? The phrase came to me in the shower this morning as I was carefully avoiding interacting with anyone. I haven’t trusted myself to even speak, never mind with eye contact, in the last few days. … Continue reading

Talking It Out with Mini Me

Talking It Out with Mini Me

Reading your parents blog where they work through the complexities of your burgeoning, adolescent, lawyer-like [read: limited-in-experience-and-manipulative] way of viewing the world will be, I hope, also complex. I bet you’ll struggle with how you’ll do this parenting thing differently. I bet you’ll question your motives and review your young manipulations. Then I hope you forgive yourself. And … Continue reading

Everyone Thinks They Can Write a Book

Everyone Thinks They Can Write a Book

Deep inside I’m willing to bet that everyone feels they have a story to tell. It’s when they start judging that urge that they’ll second guess themselves and wonder who would ever read it. Or how it would ever get written with their other life commitments. Or who would buy it. Or this one: “Everything … Continue reading

I Love/Hate School Lunches

I have experienced a shift as of late. This shift feels like it’s here to stay and one previously bothersome area that has (miraculously) relented it’s withered & bony grasp on me is the idea of making my girls school lunches. They go to a school where the parent base puts a significant amount of conscious … Continue reading

Summer Fun & Food Sovereignty

Last summer I was pretty nervous that I would be responsible for feeding and entertaining my cuties all day every day for three months. I thought we’d be bored. I thought they’d be in my face. It didn’t end up that way. We found plenty to do. We made a list and did most of … Continue reading